Darkness Is My Closest Friend
Trusting God is to be a laughingstock.
You see the thing is, most Christians believe that God heals the sick, it’s just that there’s some disagreement as to when.
Some think that God does not do anything right here and now in this life. They believe our only job is to read the Bible and believe it and be on our best behavior. They believe that healing comes eventually in heaven.Most of the time these people are absolutely right. They don’t bother praying for healing because they already know what the rest of us will eventually find out LOL. Still, don’t be like them. Even if we’re all wrong about this, go ahead and ask God for help anyway.
Some think God is willing to heal everyone right now as long as the correct faith recipe is followed. This seems exciting and logical at first and you will initially feel very hopeful but after a few attempts at various faith formulas you’ll find that you have a small headache and you will wonder why everyone you pray for either doesn’t get better or dies. You will probably take a second look at how all this faith and prayer stuff works.
I happen to be a person who is not exactly sure what God does or how he does it but I pray for the sick anyway. I seek to be prayed for by others when I am sick, and I ask God to intervene on my own behalf and on behalf of those I am praying for. Now of course, what often happens is that I do not see the healing which I anticipated in my prayers. Can you relate? Now what?
First, we should cry. Then we should cry some more. We ask God a few particular questions, like “Why?” Or “What in the actual hell?” Then we quote the last line of Psalm 88. Maybe we make a bumper sticker out of it and put it on the car so that everyone in town can know that “Darkness is my closest friend.”
There is no way to really do any of this without being a laughingstock. But honestly, isn’t it kind of ridiculous to believe in God in the first place? Doesn’t it take a fair amount of audacity to say any kind of prayer at all, expecting to be heard and answered? We don’t have to be ashamed when our prayers are not answered. And we do not need to be afraid. God is such a wonderful and trustworthy friend. He heals and does not heal. We stand in awe
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Practicing prayer for healing in my life has resulted in many disappointments and awkward moments
but for the few ridiculous times it has resulted in the healing of somebody’s body, all the awkwardness and disappointment has absolutely been worth it
Prayer, a deeply emotional and regularly religious boomerang which can and often does kill its senders. Was it prayer, was it a wish, was it a heartfelt cry, was it an un compassionate God, a God who is silent, dumb to unbearable pain?
Thanks for your post.